Day 4: Thoughtful Thursday

I've been thinking...

"You're going to look like a Barbie doll when you get home!" ~ my mother, after hearing how hard I've been working out.

Sorry to disappoint, people, but plastic surgery is not on the spa menu here. I hope you're not expecting some magical transformation. It's only a week.

Ready for this?

When I get home, I may look exactly the same as when I left.

I came here to fix my head, not my body - at least, not all at once. Will I lose weight? For sure. You do the math. Calories in, calories out, 3500 calories equals one pound. Yup, I'll lose weight. But it may just be a few pounds. Cuz that's how it works in real life. No quick fixes. I'm not on the show - I know they drop double digits in a week's time (and that's a television week; I'm told there's actually 9-13 days between weigh-ins)

More important, to me, than the number on the scale is what I will gain from being here. A new perspective on life, on health, on my relationship with food, on the power of my body, on what it is I REALLY want for myself. I know there will be soup cans being bought for food banks all across this beautiful country because I came here (and have people cheering me on.) That in itself has been a great motivation.

To me, it's about celebrating my 40 years of life; about celebrating the body God healed after our accident; about taking care of my body and allowing myself to experience some serenity and peace in nature. I am loving this experience and it has truly been life-changing. I won't be the same person when I get back - but the biggest change will be on the inside. Where it starts. Eventually, there will be a noticeable difference on the outside too.

I've been pushed beyond my limits; I've been detoxed from coffee; I've experienced what "normal eating" is and I've got some great tools and resources to continue this journey from home. I've learned a lot here and can't wait to put it into practice and honor my body when I get home. I'm looking forward to helping educate my friends & family. It's been a huge blessing to have this experience and one I will always be grateful I allowed myself to have.

So...thanks to everyone for their support. I'll be home Sunday.

Barbie's got her own ride.